Joely has the flu. For some reason this has been unreasonably traumatic for his mother. I guess this is partly because this is his first experience with throwing up, and my first experience having to take care of a barfy child.
I hate throwing up. Well, no one likes it, but I have always had a particularly strong aversion. I think it is the loss of control. I feel panicky when I get an upset stomach. I do everything in my power not to vomit, even when I know that I will probably feel better for having done so.
I'm glad to say that sympathy for my child won out over revulsion. I followed him anxiously around with a bucket. I cuddled him in spite of the fear of contagion. I changed his sheets and sang him songs and gave him bland food and liquids. Of course I cared for Joel, because I love him, and there was no one else to do so. Brandon was on a business trip. It was really difficult for me, though! Sometimes I think God sends me experiences I'm sure I can absolutely NOT deal with, just to show me that I CAN handle them with his help.